Remembering My Freedom

I remember being very young and observing my grandfather coming home every Friday with his pay in a money bag, I remember how tired he was, how he would come home everyday and have the same routine…
I observed, and one day asked him “When will you stop working and do what you want to do ?”
And he replied “ You mean when I will I retire ?”
I had no idea what that word meant but I said “ok”
he replied “when I’m 65”
I asked “ How long is that “
and he replied “ 15 -20 years “

I remember feeling like I wanted to explode and scream out “No!!! I did not come here to go to school and then work till 65 and then be free ! I want to be free now ! When I grow up , I want to work , I want to have money , I want to see the world, meet people this cannot be, how do you do it ?

And he responded “ I have a responsibility to provide food for you and pay the bills “ I started to quieten down as that sentence made me think I have to do this someday too , and he had to do it for all of us in the house, I felt trapped but destined to find a way out of this and still provide for myself …

I could not get over how hard he had worked to do this for us and I wanted to grow up one day and find another way…
so I went to school – didn’t enjoy it
So I went to university – enjoyed it
So I went to work – enjoyed it
However I didn’t see myself doing this the rest of my life , I started to see the same routine like my grandfather and explored how I could find my freedom and still be responsible for myself …
I looked at what I wanted to do for myself?
What I wanted to do for others ?
And the best way I could achieve this …
It was not easy as the first step I took was not a way out but a stepping stone to my freedom and my passion in my life…

I worked hard however I lacked balance, I started to become aware of my thoughts, the more hard I worked the more negative I got, my physical body ached so much , I started to become more and more unhappy…
eventually I decided to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT…

I started to find ways to tackle my negativity and in that become aware of balance finding things outside of work that I wanted to do.
With speaking to a dear friend one day who had suggested a LIFE ACTIVATION session, I decided try it … I remember feeling so free, like that 4-5 year old had found a way out of the trap of working hard and I had all the power to find a way of being responsible and doing what I loved . It was soo good I wanted more . That feeling was priceless and joyful at the same time, the piece that was missing was that I had forgotten that I had the ability to create my reality and manifest anything I put my love and passion into and most importantly that I was worthy and capable of it .

That was my “WOW” moment I will never forget.

I then started to seek more of this as I started to believe I had all these answers within me.

I then went to a 2 day class called EMPOWER THYSELF .

I got there, and fell into complete relaxation, I had a knowing that everything was going to be okay, I was waiting for this from the time I felt trapped as that 4-5 year old and this was my way out …

I saw my guide /teacher up front speaking about FREE WILL and it clicked at that moment, I want to do this, I want to be up front and help all those who have forgotten about free will and their ability to create their reality as I couldn’t help my grandfather at the time. Those two days were powerful to my my life purpose and my freedom.

A memory came up for me …
My inner child was really angry at everyone including God , “ I did not come here to study , work until I can’t anymore and be free when I’m 65 “ why did I come here ? I am not free to do what I want to do “ from watching television I saw the world as a beautiful place with interesting people that I would never get to see or meet… of course this tantrum was just away of expressing myself, I managed to heal that anger, the younger me had every right to be angry because something inside of her knew better, she knew she was capable of better and she could manifest it.

The empower thyself initiation helped me progress so much that I have so much gratitude for my grandfathers hard work, my inner child’s expression that got me to a point in my life where I guide others into feeling free from their limitations that they had built and helping them remember their Life purpose and joy.

It may take another Generation for all of humanity to achieve this shift in consciousness, however it’s time to take that that step to freeing yourself so that your children can live a life a life of freedom and so much more…

WE ARE THE CYCLE OF LIFE…